Marlboro Man

I thought I had a choice as to whether I could give up smoking or liquor, but it there is no way to give up one without the other. I have been struggling to kick the habit and let me tell you the monkey feels like fucking King Kong on my back.
I went out with a bunch of friends a couple of days ago to celebrate the new year with a bit of drinking and good conversation. There is nothing more tortuous than sitting around with a bunch of people whilst drinking beer and trying not to smoke. Well I succumbed to temptation and vowed to keep up the fight the next day.
A few days later I had to spend the day teaching a very large group of children in a special program hosted by my school. That also did me in. After 7 continuous hours of yelling screaming fun and games and cleaning up and making sure all the children had a blast I was exhausted. And in another moment of weakness a cigarette found it's way to my lips.
I'm starting to rationalize my weakness. If Prometheus sacrificed so much to steal fire from the gods, who am I to refuse it?
I know this is stupid, but if you've never quit smoking or have never been a smoker to begin with, you cannot imagine the insanity of withdrawal. I'll try to keep the stories of my agony to a minimum as I continue my efforts to conquer and kill this audacious beast.